I'm not making a big deal out of this, I've bothered everyone with my angst quite enough on this blog as it is.
I just broke up.
I'm a jerk, I have zero interest in dating ever again (or at least the foreseeable future), I don't even know that I would deserve to date anyone again.
I honestly had several reasons for breaking up, I had it all rationalized in my head. Those reasons still apply, but I was an emotional mess during the phone call that ended it and I didn't get to say many of those things. Not that it would have helped her feel any better about what happened, wouldn't have helped me either I'm sure.